SHE MADE ME. ...and it was fun


1. I live for the situations I make up in my mind that could happen. What I mean is that in almost any situation that I know about ahead of time I will imagine multiple things that might happen.

2. I read for people’s reactions. In a story my favourite parts are when something shocking or something that makes the characters think happens. Part of this is because of the above, number 1.

3. I frequently jump up from my computer and run into my bedroom, jump on the bed, only to get up seconds later and rush back to my computer. This phenomenon happens usually after 2 and has to do with 1.

4. I am slowly coming to the horrifying realisation that the first half of high school is going to be labelled “best left forgotten” in my head. Much like the entirety of middle school.

5. I like that I have trouble being able to say words. Like with the g’s and such. I think it makes me unique, when all it really does is make me sound like I can’t speak. But that’s ok.

6. I wish I knew what to say. I always have these thoughts, that if I could only put them into words I’d...be better than I am.

7. I hate mornings. They aren’t good times for me.

8. Whenever I watch a movie I will make comments the entire time. No matter what. Even in a theatre, though it is harder. And believe me, if I’ve seen the movie before you will know what happens. ....people don’t like watching movies with me.

9. I talk to myself. Out loud. All the time. Sometimes people catch me and they just ask, “...are you talking to me?” and I have to be all “...of course, who else would I be talking to?” I can’t help it. Who else can I get intelligent conversation with sometimes?

10. I am a bitch. No, hold your gasps. Really. But I never mean it, well...usually I don’t. I call people names make horrid comments about all the time. But, you see, if you’re my friend and I do that, it just means I’m comfortable enough to act myself around you! Don’t be offended! ....sometimes I think that people think I’m serious when I call them things...they need to chill.

11. I don’t make friends easily...or really at all. All my friends come from other friends who have come from other friends. Really it’s all Tiana’s fault. (Though I can make acquaintances with weak willed boys that I force to talk to me *coughstepehencough*)

12. My favourite time of day is the early afternoon. Because it always seems like there’s so much time left. You’d think it was the nights, but all they do is remind me of lonely hours spent half out of my mind because I can’t sleep. Night’s are so lonely. I already mentioned mornings (which is 4 AM until 12 noon) And evenings absolutely depress the shit outta me. So badly. They’re an ending to the day. The ultimate sign that time has passed and we won’t be getting it back...

13. I’m actually very nice. You just have to get past the bitch coating to the fluffy centre. ‘tis why I am a bunny. Bunnies can’t be mean and bitchy, can they really?

14. The reason I stopped reading regular books is because they almost always contain hetero. Yes. That is rly why. I...still can’t hardly stand reading it. Why can’t homosexual relationships be that commonplace?! Why can’t they be the same? Why is it that the only gay relationships are the things they put in the “Gay and Lesbien” section at Barnes and Noble?! Why can’t I just read a murder mystery where the main character has a boyfriend!? WHY NOT DAMNIT!?

15. My high school has made me racist. In..a way. I don’t hate them all. Just...most. Which is horrible. My...well, myself really before high school would be cringing at all of this. I use to be the kind of person to stand up for blacks in front of my relatives. Now I’m more likely to instigate. *sigh* Man, sometimes I think Jupiter would just be so much better.

16. “Lying to ourselves is more deeply ingrained that lying to others” –Fyodor Dostuyevsky

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GO ME!